Ha Ha you're Dead
And I'm so happy
In loving memory
Of your demise
You are Hate.
You care little to nothing about people and things
around you. You are consumed by feelings of
animosity and loathing towards everything or
one thing and it affects your view of all that
is around you.
What Emotion Are You?
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Haha...didnt know that was Edward Norton till now...and even the damm quiz doesnt get me........T_T.....
"Only One"
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
and I don't know what to do anymore...
That does not look good...It seriously does not...look good....I need to understand the situation more first......then...maybe just maybe...if ever should it arise strike while I have an opportunity.....my life never seems to have a dull moment....unfortunately....my life has been hit after hit after hit...and I don't think its very funny anymore...(you hear that God?)...like some sort of Sick cycle Carousel....T_T....well...what I can do now...is probably pray...about it....and...I don't know......like not funny.....
What I gotta do
What I gotta say
Now seems so faraway...
"Welcome To My Life"
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
but no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like [x2]
Welcome to my life [x3]
T_T.....wish you would understand me.....
Fuck you James...Fuck you....what the fuck do you think you are doing?...Irresponsible....Irrational Fucker...wake up......Look...observe...Shut up you bloody Fuck....Let go...let go.....God.....Seeking loneliness now......going to sit in the corner now I guess I love the corner..let me stay in the corner...What do I want?....suprisingly I asked myself....and what was more shocking was that the answer is....well at least from a part of me was...nothing....behind....my laughs.......what I seem to be...and I what I seem to be?....or something less?or something more?....Have I lost myself among the countless shades of me?....I wish I was the only damn person.....on a faraway island....Me,My God..and nature....just there......thinking...appreciating everything..........there is seriously nothing wrong with me...I think I am feeling depression..although I am not too sure cause I kind of feel at home with this feeling and am kind of content with it....I dunno..I am seriously losing the desire to communicate with other people...and I am very fine with it....in fact..as I sink lower and lower into this...I love it more and more...
So here I am...Standing before a crumbling image of my current state...of nothing...there is nothing to crumble...there is nothing to fall.....still I type this.....without aim without...purpose....I can hear him...as predicted......they come they go...as usual.....meaningless behind....chatter gossip....silence......same things....care concern....worthless empty....something beats...I can no longer...see...still I long for.....still I scorn at...confusing....life.....behind..hollow words....hiding.....insecurity....understanding......fallacy.....do you really care?.....act like you do.....trust...burned to the ground.......I don't need it anymore......Broken...this bond.....I don't wanna live hypocrisy.....shut up....shut up.....you shut up.......why?....Why?......no reason.....no purpose...forsaken...rather.....love....loneliness.......hate....you..hate all.no masks....unattainable?......Irrational....Ideologies.....wish...useless.....without action.....laughter.....redundant.....you...angry?...I no longer care...purpose....serve your purpose....nothing more.....nothing less.....
Release yourself