I wrote something that expresses how I feel everytime Bernie....talks about you know......well...you know damn right......
Pig-Flavoured Nightmares
I'm just a victim to this supersition
another kid under your supervision
by the rumours and in addition
to all those painful contributions
I'd take
Milk Chocolate eyeballs
or some
half eaten wasp galls
or some
creepy pulip dolls
Even
Nathan's pubic hair
even
food from Banghra air
anything but..
PIG FLAVOURED NIGHTMARES
I've been dreaming of her day by day
Not sure when I'll tell her...maybe today?
not sure who 'cause I can't tell her face
guess I'll retrace back my steps to that dreaming place
it's a red horizon
behind a deep blue ocean
I'm still holding her
in a clear December
I look into her eyes
and I start to realize
IT'S JUST A PIG-FLAVOURED NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmm...Chinese...is coming...gah!...crappy subject...eeps....so gotta start doing something about it...need to initiate master plan......=p.....anyway......I realize.......that I kinda implode....for most things....I destroy from within....I guess.....when you like piss me off...I implode...but once I can't take the implosion it becomes an explosion........and you....die....yup....haha.....of course...I tend to be a homicidal + suicidal kinda guy so I'll just destroy everything in a 10 m radius when that happens...I believe in 1 philosophy...The defeat of your enemy is far greater than your own victory...haha...yup....thats what I thought while I was getting trashed by my dad in Gunbound...lol...yup.....the guy is nuts.....yup....can't believe it.......damn nutcase.....got an account with sapphire wand...but he is my dad and all so I guess he is alright lol
Defeated...yup...have been feeling that for quite sometime now......its like blow after blow after blow.....lol...well....I wrote a song lol...about defeat the day I got kicked out of the S'pore idol...shit......and I was in Burger King , sitting on the exact same chair I sat on 3 years ago...when I went for a Magic : the gathering tournament(with John Sim by my side)......which I also lost..and then I took out the paper over the tray and started writing what I felt into a very loosely put together song......
Broken Unconclusion
Defeat sinks slowly in
as disappointments blow up within
can't take this emotion
as I am left to the devotion
to the extreme conviction
that I can't do anything right
all I see are shattered dreams
empty promises among other things
wants and desires
stained with blood I've perspired
the sacrifices I've made
coupled with the words I've said
they all go to waste
as I'm left in this lonely place
Am I simply dellusional
am I just too emotional
drowning in sorrow
I can't see tomorrow
I can't face them again
they aren't outlets for my pain
I am shackled to my shame
and it's driving me insane
Me VS Myself...
2 sides of me.......both me...always...conflicting...the shy guy....vs the psycho....the sporty guy vs the wet blanket....the meanie vs the I'm ok with everyone guy.....the Hate all guy vs the love all guy.......loosened up piece of shit Vs the dead pan serious.....lol....hmmm....they say the way you think i governed by whether you are left or right Handed....so what do you do when you are Ambi dextrous....lol...conflicting minds...haha...maybe that would explain me.......
something funky I found on friendster.......courtesy of Wei Xiang:
Sex Explained by Phua Chu Kang
Message: Aloy : Why is making love so enjoyable?
PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjolable becaws, same
like when you dig your nose with your finger mah!
Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex more
than men?
PCK : Of course woman lah! When you dig dig
your nose, your nose feel better than your
finger, right?
Aloy : Why do women hate it when they get
raped?
PCK : Ai-yah! Say, you walk along the load,
den someone come over and dig your nose, you like
or not? Ehhh? Don't pray pray ah!
Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have sex
when she is having her menses?
PCK : Oy!! If your nose bleeding, you still
go and dig meh?? Siow ah! Use your blain, use
your blainnn..........
Aloy : Why is it most men don't like wearing
condoms when they are making love?
PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah, you
like to dig with a glove on your finger or
not? Not the same shiok feeling mah. Corlight or
not?
Aloy : Why is making love carried out in
private?
PCK : Ah boyyyyy, use your blain, use your
blainnnnn
.................................. you go and dig
your nose in flont of your whole class
izit?? Stupid lah!!
Aloy : Wah ...... Uncle Chu Kang, you are
very good.
PCK : Aiyah......, 'Best in Singapore, JB,
some say Batam, and now, the whole world!' also
ah!!!
Release yourself