hmmmm...it's been awhile since I last blogged...
and from what I see after comparing BMT in Tekong and NDU...
it seems mine is alot of physical than technical..
all we've been doing mostly is PT...
PT here and there...
and the WO says it's not enough..
goodness.....
rushing here...
rushing there...
and once in awhile...
the thought comes to mind...
'what the fuck am I doing here?...'
well....all the answers to those questions currently in my mind...
are all pre-programmed lines...
put in there by you-know-who and you-know-how..
but through the pains and strains...
and all the sickening routines that are part and parcel of army life..
I find myself...once again....
pulling through it...
somehow....
and I ask again...
'What am I doing?...'
should I just downgrade myself?...
no...
not until I can silence that will inside to push through it all...
I just hope I have what it takes...
to pull through it...
to find what my direction in life is...
and why life as it is...
still feels so unfulfilled and aimless.....
Release yourself