when Matchbox Twenty wrote 'Bright lights'
they essentially captured the physical essence of showbiz..
besides the outdoor shots...every single shot basically needs a hell lot of lights..
everywhere.....and it gets hot under those lights...
pretty hot...and my job profile includes tissue boy so I have to make sure they clean that sweat..
one of the not so glamourous things about my job..
nothing in life comes easy...
and my job is pissing the shit out of me...
and right now..
one of my producers left the project..
the most easiest to work with guy quit..
that's not right man...
everyday...when I finish work..
I exit with this death aura of negative energy with mode set to genocide..
I literally feel like shit...and all..
ugh...
I have developed a sickening fear..
of my phone...
today...from 7.18 am..
my phone kept ringing from then on..
everything about work...
from producers, equipment rental ppl, cameraman, soundman executive producers...
even the stupid extras...
to a point where I start hallucinating my phone ringing..
because I was trying to get some sleep while all that happened..
sigh..
another long day....
Hmmmm....
ugh..
the rain..
is seriously...super depressing..
My depression+rain depression+job depression...
wow...
hmmm...serious work...technically...
starts...
today...
gonna work with the 3rd Producer..
..
which reminds..me..
each of my producers looks like an animal..
(I don't mean this in a bad way...just that..its the sense...)
the chinese one from the first day wore this Raccoon club t-shirt..
so..yea...considering her small size
black-framed specs....
and her build...
she sure looks..like one..
+ she seems fiesty...
then there's the indian one who looks like an old bear..
with all the grouchiness..
but she's still..despite her demands..
capable of good work...
(I still have no idea how to judge a good film though..)
(but the other producers seemed impressed...)
the last producer reminds me of an old experienced alpha wolf..
one that's lost his impulsive self for a more patient understanding..
yea...now give them each random scenarios with gory conclusions..
and I can start making Happy Tree Friends the sequel..
(not funny...I know...but typing helps..me relax...please bear with me..)
anyway...
my life..still lies in ruin(I've said this many times..and I'll say it again..)
still haven't signed up for driving too...
wah...
stop procrascinating..wake up..
live...
Z.
Blogging is therapeutic for my insomnia..
I need to release my 'inner insecurities and conflicts'
unfortunately...there are many many things I cannot put up here..
due to the fact that its also a public site..
therefore it is entirely inappropriate to flame criticise or vulgarize
unless you have clear substantial evidence to back your claim....
but it's still therapeutic despite the fact that I cant call everyone who pisses me off..
a fucker...
anyway....(I've used this word way too much...)
work is hectic as ever...
notably due to my habit of simply skimping through my work emails...
quickly...looking only for juicy details...
like what the salary is like for the other crew...
(showbiz is still quite good money...despite mediacorp's reputation)
anyway..I now have to find props...for the upcoming shoot...
mattress pillows blankets...lamp..
haven't typed those forsaken credits...
still need to collect the dvds from the post production studio..
(the studio is the coolest thing..it's the guys fricking bachelor pad..
with a pool table, macs everywhere,all that's missing is a minibar man...
so that's what i still have left to do..
elsewhere on my agenda...
I have resolved to start my driving lessons...
going tmr to register...
just wanna get this thing cleared off..
another life skill...
watched Closer today..
(I know..Slow....but I couldn't find the will to watch it till now)..
kind of sad...
but..quite typical..
it's got that world of menace quality to it..
and the dialogue...gives that kind of feel of communication's failure..
and then..Jude Law's character..
tragic...
tragically beautiful...
so this time..
fate fell short this time...
your smile fades in the summer...
Ok...
yesterday started out really early..
woke up to be at school before Assembly..
thanks to David...
who wanted to see the J3 facilitators..
and to disturb anyone he recognised..
didn't spend long though..
we went down to X square...
and played revenge of the sith for 1 and a half hours..
and I trashed David at it..
(leading to dire consequences later)
He kept finishing me off with his stupid force lightning..
till I did the same to him..
heheh..
anyway..we went to meet Jerold and Brendan at 1....
and ate that new KFC fiesta thing..
quite worth it..
but boring food...
went to look at some clothes for chinese new year...
where David proceeded to suan the living daylights oof my love life
*cue dire consequences...
hence...I was on the verge of going into an Alvin Wu silent mode there and then..
damn it la...
I've already told him..
I'll probably be a
*cue delusions of mediocrity
Successful movie director cum author cum playwright bachelor,
sipping wine at the balcony outside my minibar in my penthouse suite in New York
*cue end
heheh.
then had to rush down to the post production studio
Preview of episode 1..
it looks pretty cool..
when you see what you saw in filming..
becomes so much cooler after edit..
I make a cameo experience in the episode.
and my hand and face also end up on the opening sequence..
my arm is being used for some advertising of the program..
ugh...it looked alright..
not too excited about my first appearance..on TV in a long time..
I looked quite shitty..
puffy eyes...because I was working something like 12+ hour shifts for the last 3 days..
T_T....
but still watch the program when it comes out anyway..
it's called 'My voice...'
starting in Feb..
I've got work to do...
hmmm...
there was a sort of disbelief..in my face..
as I keyed in 365 X 100 on my calculator..
36500 days...that's how long we have to live..
(or so according to that FFF guy)
yea...really really short..time...
shock horror..
anyway...
I never knew that republic foodcourt was so upmarket...
tried the fish tikka wrap there..
now that's a real fish wrap...
but it costs 8.40 a serving...
really Ex...
looking for Xue Liang there..but he hadn't come to work yet...so..
went to Cold Storage to look for Brendan...
its not an easy job...
but the pay for him isn't that bad...
Coke + wine didn't taste too good....too...
though I took a large portion of it...
roughly half a mug of wine...
can't sleep...thanks to that..
and the sugar from the coke..
my liver is gonna fail thanks to my drinking man...
anyway...
going to school later...
stupid david wants me to come..
going back to school so many times..
sorta kills that nice nostalgic feeling...
and I have to alot of work to do to..
I still have to type the credits for the first episode..
still have to contact alot of people to obtain their consent forms..
and gotta get some stuff printed..
damn...am I a slacker...
haha...
Release yourself