I went down to the applecare centre..
and suprise suprise..
the damned place was closed..
and the security guard..
acted pretty retarded.
kept saying 9 to 7
quite a few times while doing the finger motions of the numbers..
yea..
Epsilon Semi-moron...
then came the bus ride...home..
where..this exhibitionist lady..
rested her incredibly dried..Sahara-like Calves..
on the bus seat..
occupying both seats..
seriously..a disgusting sight..
her skin was all cracking up..
Putrid..
Attending mass today...
somehow...
my awareness...of everything...
just became way more...blown up...
there's that..sense...of being there..totally...
aboslutely....so close...that you can almost feel the priest..
and yet..still being caught up in your mind..
Its uncanny..
my work still lies in ruins..
thanks to me finding out how much fun the replay of warcraft 3 campaigns are..
and thanks to my own mistakes..
alas..you are your own worst enemy..
time to start picking up the pieces again..
come on...
face forward..
no rest for the wicked..
Like shooting the last shot of the competition..
the last..one...that amounts to your final score...
feeling the pellet zoom through the barrel...
and at last you hear the clashing of metal from 10 m away..
and you don't care what you shot from that point on...
what matters...is that whatever you shot for..it's over...
you turn...and you see...
the shooting people...
whether...its disappointment etched across your face..
or a sigh of relief...
it's over...
I can't think of anymore...cheesy stuff....
anyway.....Blech 42 is almost done...
Burn the soul....
hear its echoes of false hope..
twisted somehow..
all I long for..
but destruction
to manifest...
what lies inside..
pandemonium
all there is..
tell me..
if that is the soul..
then am I better without it?
then where am I without it?
someone tell me...
no..
I can scream..
scream..
scream..
but no one can answer...
no one..
but myself..
but what faith do I have in myself...
to set out in mind...
a perfect plan..
yet as I try..
no matter how I try..
I never do...
never do..
so where forth lies my salvation...
when will the sacrifice ever be enough..
when one sets it as never enough...
yet..
I hear..
hear what?
screaming...
no screaming..
the screeches of the body...
as it wanes...
wanes for what?...
for nothing..
nothing..
nothing..
but a dream..
a wish..
that somehow..
I wish to be more than what I am..
to find..
find that hope..
hope for myself..
my salvation..
yet see how selfishly...I crave it..
adore it..
and still..I watch the rest..
wane too..
I am torn..
for what shall good be done..
if all I see are what leads to ulterior motives..
trying to appease..myself..
then..what...to do nothing?...
perhaps..not..
what good can be done...
should be done..
let salvation care for itself...
Ahhhhh...
I guess..I think I found the root of my frustrations..
I just can't seem to let go of alot of stuff..
I keep dwelling on old mistakes...
worrying worrying..
why why...
basically regretting..
to say..I do not regret...
is self-denial..
ahhhhh..
then this all amounts to me not being able to fulfill the task at hand..
poof...it then becomes a vicious cycle...
somehow..I've gotta break free from it...
before..I lose what little faith I have in my humanity..
My Brother fell face flat..
while playing some computer game..
he lost his 2 front teeth...
well...chipped really badly...
his nose and lip are swollen...
I have yet to see it..
but I'm guessing it looks pretty bad..
Accident-prone...
that's the word that describes my brother..
stuck his hand on the lift door while it opened..
Rip..
went to my cousin's house and broke a pretty old mirror...
just like that..
Sigh...
gonna have to really take care of him..
after all he is my brother..
and he is going to be my organ factory when I need a spare..
Wahahahaahahahaha
no..la..I am not that heartless...
School..
not coming to school for one day makes so much of a difference...
Now Yong Xin looks like sky captain with his new wind breaker..
but he doesn't look bad with it...the colour's seriously nice..
Class politics...
an issue which has popped up again..
Still wonder how I am gonna help get this situation along..
guess such things will always exist..
when people of various levels of perspectives arises..
that's where politics lies..
and how are we all going to see one perspective?..
impossible..
then again..
we all can't act like everyone's going to stab you in the back..
come on...
only if you were someone like Osama..
then maybe...yea...
everybody has their own obstacles to deal with..
even if I had enemies...
I wouldn't give a damn..
waste of time..
waste of effort..
no point wasting your energy dealing with this sort of thing..
unless it comes in my way..
Politics is simple..
Don't get involved unless necessary..
and always never get so involved in it that you lose your life..
so..back to the issue of school....
so much work...
and I still don't get stuff..
I am still seriously lost..
maybe still blind..
after all..
the greatest sin..
in my opinion..
is ignorance..
time to get the study plan under way....
gonna put up a really cool picture..from Bleach
don't see it unless you want to spoil your Bleach experience...
Thanks to Yuri Woofers for the subbing...and Kubotite for one of the nicest pieces of anime and manga this side of the universe..
Visoreds...uber-cool.
Woo..PES A...
ok..
anyway....the only thing irritating me was the guy who was No.17 at the counter..
wah..the guy took sooooo long..
I took a piss read 1 magazine.....while freezing to death in that waiting room..
and still he hadn't finished..
wah..that guy either died or his balls rolled out or something...
and..wah the blood test needle looked pretty scary...but it was...almost painless..
like seriously...from Shaun's stories I was expecting to cry...
lol..
Anyway..finally got my haircut...
Looks decent now...
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I really really want to burst out laughing....after hearing the WRONG things..
yea...damned adolescent relationships..
I really wish mine would start =p...
Release yourself