Gah...
my evil plan to complete my 80 hours of CIP is almost set...
however...it requires...alot of social gatherings....
heh...I HATE social gatherings..
but I am..afterall..desperate nonetheless..
so..I have no choice..
you know...
reflecting on my allowance...of Daniel to Dota..
it was really kind of a bad idea..
though I cannot discern what the actual consequences..of that action was..
I understand..
that the very embracing of desires..
is quenching an unquenchable thirst..
the thing about it..
is that..there..will always..be a longing for it..
quench..and it will seek to be quenched more..
heh..
the only way is abstinence..
to teach yourself to live without it..
its all in your mind.
you're weak if you think you're weak.
you're strong if you think you're strong...
you are only as strong as your will..
of course people with both the physical capability and this will..
will oust those with will only..
heh..
Anyway...I've just stumbled...upon a fact that should've hit me months ago..
GAVIN ROSSDALE PLAYS BALTHAZAR!!!! IN CONSTANTINE!!!!
WTF WTF WTF!!!
THE GAVIN 'ADRENALINE' ROSSDALE!!!
Goodness gracious me...
THE DAMN GUY FROM BUSH....
WTF WTF WTF!!!
Now Comes The Night-Rob Thomas
When the hour is upon us
And our beauty surely gone
No you will not be forgotten
No you will not be alone
And when the day has all but ended
And our echo starts to fade
No you will not be alone then
And you will not be afraid
No you will not be afraid
When the fog has finally lifted
From my cold and tired brow
No I will not leave you crying
And I will not let you down
No I will not let you down
I will not let you down
Now comes the night
Feel it fading away
And the soul underneath
Is it all that remains
So jus slide over here
Leave your fear in the fray
Let us hold to each other
Till the end of our days
heh...Rob Thomas doesn't disappoint...
ok....
Situation..update..
NUS Invitationals brought out my major shortcomings..
yet I still managed to improve my score...
I finally hit the point where I know I can improve past that point..
Major Shortcomings:Stamina,Time Management and over-anxiety..
next up...Nationals..
anyway..they had a novelty shoot....
and I decided to release all the stress from the comp..
So guess what?..
I went nuts..
I pretended like I was some psycho shooting nut..
doing crazy stuff...
Note:I shot using both hands..left and right..though not at the same time..
but I still managed to hit the card..
lol..and I still...lost..not because of the shooting
But Because I had to play Scissors Paper Stone.....
T_T..
anyway..Kudos to Jin Rong and Melissa Quek..
Jin Rong for getting 2nd place..and beating NJ at the only event we could..
and Mel for trashing the NJ shooter who trashed me at Scissors Paper Stone =p
Gahh..
anyway..
I think despite..the shortcomings for our team..
I think its a sort of a consolation that the screw-ups happen now instead of the Nationals..
so Now..all I can say is that..we should give our best for the final stretch..
yep..
*sigh...
I will do everything in my power to make sure...
that the tragedy at CDANS is not repeated again..
I will give it my best shot..
I will be focused..
I will be resolute..
Release yourself