the comment is irrelevant....
haha..that's what I wrote in response to the GP essay question...
either I have committed suicide..
or I wrote a great essay..
God knows....
Went to NYDC after that..
E=MC2 isn't really kind on my digestive system..
Heh...at least the apple centre nearby has an import of BF 1942..
finally...
Borders...hah....saw the coolest(the word is so Cliche)..
Notebook...it has this celtic inscription..on the front..
but it costs $39.90!!!!...
and Its a Notebook..Notebook!
=p...
Waiting for my next hand...
The hardest part of anything...is..
starting it....
well at least for me that is...
heh...
the whole issue on...
who likes who..
love triangles and such..
have given me major shocks over this past few months.
heh..
strange things...these infatuations...
haha...
the whole issues on Wassups...now..
I as one who was there upon the establishing of the beloved pastime..
say this:
that it is getting out of hand...
I mean....the occasional rip in the pants is forgiveable...
but if it becomes...a constant.(with too much genital damageXp)..then...
I don't know what to say...
it's becoming....or the unbecoming of wassups..
brutal...thats what it is..
think there should be certain rules on fairplay...
especially since each wassup seems to end off..
in a greater disaster than the last...
heh...won't be long before Mr TJS gets involved....
heh..been a long time since I actually skipped something..
heh.....not really a good thing nonetheless...
I want a sign...over my head....
which says stop bugging me...
no...I'm serious..
early...in the morning...
I get this J1 asking me where is 1T20..
of all people ask me....sigh..
ahhh..anyway..directed him there nonetheless...
do I look that friendly ?
I should give a more sia lan face then..
heh..and scare little children...
ahhhhh.....everything is still so messed up..
I can't find any motivation at all..
I'm like...heading into an obsolete..state of existence..
still wondering about the answer to my question..
heck..thy will be done...
and there is nothing...
no screaming no shouting....nothing..will ever get to you.
unless you will it....
hah...the reality of existence...heh...what power given unto such frail
specimens....and we abuse it....
endless twitter...endless conflict..
over power....that achieves nothing..
hah...I see a possible end to my hate..
one that is governed..by further understanding..
Hmmm..I should stop wallowing in my self-pity right about now..
What's over is over...
What matters is what I can do now..
not what I could've done before...
heh...
I should just pop up from my eternal state of depression..
How am I not to feel depressed?......
strange...
seems like I've lost myself again...
I'm just so unfeeling...
heh...maybe I choose to be that way...
because..all I feel is jealousy and hate...
Animosity towards you..
whoever you are..heh..
I can't just let everything out like that..
no...it would be disastrous...
the key is balance....
each situation an intricate balance...a flawless equilibrium
until..another situation is dealt...and the rivers of fate
flow past the obstacle..to a new state of stability..
what am I supposed to do then?..
be part of that which is the obstacle..or to flow with the river?..
heh...well it depends....where...does it go?..
Where.am I supposed to go?..
And..still I wonder...why..the answer..to
what I want for myself escape me....
where..are the answers which I seek...
where...can I find that simple peace of mind..
where..I find my place upon this wasteland...
somewhere between somewhere and nowhere...
sigh...I can't make everybody happy..
but I could give everyone the respect...that everyone deserves...
it's the least I could do..
least I could hope to....
beyond the haze of destruction and mutiliation that governs my emotions...
what more can I hope to achieve..where my heart's impure...
only the sensible mind can govern me...for now..
until my beckoning for some simple solace in a reply from you..
some simple hint...some simple faith..
something I can hold on which would keep me from falling into that endless spiral...
of that..which I seemed bound to...
Lost...again....somewhere...beyond...
Release yourself