There will always be ppl you can rely on......Like you know....Sean...Jeremy...Brendan Tan.....etc...haha.....
hmm...old problems get solved....new ones always arise.....lol...From where I am standing...there's never a dull moment.....haha....well..Now that I am dreaming of the right girl too...I am convicted to that path.....haha...yup.....well....right now...I plan on changing a few of my bad habits.......and to lose who I am to find myself again...
Tmr...the damn results will be released...but its ok...I think..lol..I accept....fate...I aint here to cry over what couldve been...I am here to continue thinking and working on what will be.....bleah!
ouch!....my comp died...suicidal thing.....ahhhhh....nooooo...just when Jeremus sent me Vindicated....ahhhhhhh!!!!...Anyway....I dunno...haha....I see everyone's like troubled...man....and it's like don't worry it'll all work out in the end...just do what's right or at least what you think and know is right....and things should work out fine:)I am selfish when it comes to revealing my problems I guess....because I don't want people to worry about me...I hate to see worried faces...hate to see the tears....hate to see the anxiety in people...but it's like sometimes it is inevitable....I guess...haha...I can see people crying on my shoulders but not me crying on theirs....haha.....I guess I am just....selfish in that sense......
Ahhhhh....my thinking's kinda warped...lol....haha....I am like misunderstood like 60% of the time...haha...can't think straight...lol.....so it's sometimes....people like get pissed at me for,from my perspective....no reason at all,haha....and its like I gotta go to them...and explain everything....haha.....I mean....its like normally when someone is pissed with you you'd be acting aggressively towards that person right?...haha....I just start laughing...sometimes....I don't understand myself either....just a nutcase...I mean...who laughs at a funeral right in the dead guy's face...right?..I do....haha....I know it seems wrong but....aye...if you could see from behind my eyes...the world would be a whole different place....its like I can't imagine living as another person...I'll just die....haha
Lol!can't stop this song...too much...w00t!lol!.....well...shit happens...and today definitely qualifies but its over....which is good...sometimes....whenever any problems arise..know that....it happens for a reason and that it specifically happens to you because you are the only person with the resilience and the strength to pull through it.....So let 'em come and take them on!...lol
Man has so much burning passion in his heart that he wants to give but the uncertainties of life is the obstacle that inhibits it....
Hence uncertainty...is the true obstacle in life......from the bible.....we see Adam and Eve eating the forbidden fruit and then realizing that they were Naked....however this has further meaning in the sense that they realized that they were vulrenable and full of uncertainty.......hence they sought security....Clothes provide security...so does money........hence it is Man's endless quest to seek certainty to seek security.....to seek truth....Fear can only spawn from uncertainty....as such....it is the base emotion for corruption...it leads....like what Yoda said...anger & hate......Hence after hate there lies destruction...However....even though Man is capable of destruction.....the highest form of evil.....his motives spring out from fear itself...thus herein lies the salvation of man....he is incapable of true evil...it is only man's desire to seek security.......
everyone feels fear....but it is what we do to overcome it that make us fearless....hence we have to learn to let go of fear...let go of our insecurities in order to live a good life....=p
Thus I realized that.......after watching X-files.....lol...stupid show makes you think deep and give you Insomnia.....=p.....and while I was tying my shoelaces...something just whacked me on the head and I thought of her...the original....and I still you....know....damn...right....lol...and then I realize...that whatever hate I had for her sprang from my own bitter insecurities.....so now it is back to you...know....what....lol
Dusk crashes into Dawn,and a new chapter begins....=p
Release yourself