Ahhh.....
Kena trashed at floorball
Trashed a tenner also
by accident....sorry....T_T
then went to play pool..
Kena trashed by Jeremy
He is so damn pro T_T
Went to K-box...
It does'nt have much of my type of songs...
Hmm.....I think I am gonna sing 'Hero'
but hmmm.....how do you know that you are singing in the right voice
Hmm.....I appreciate all the people who came to support me and Daniel
I can only describe Marissa's voice in one word and facial expression:
Whoa...0_0!
Still gotta think of another song....
do you think choosing a Josh Groban song is being too ambitious
hmmm.....the spirit's gone so I guess that's good
I found inspiration to write another song
so here is a small sample of it:
Everybody
Everybody's got their battles to fight
Everybody's got their own fears to fright (them)
Everybody's got their demons inside
and I can't face tomorrow
but
Everybody's got their angels beside
Everybody's got that one friend in light
and he'll make everything right
So I can face tomorrow
The spirit came back again
Same place same time
But I will not run
I will not hide
God give me strength and courage
to face this greatest fear
Something so sick
something so unnatural happened last night
I should be seriously terrified
I should be alot more paranoid than usual
but that funky thing gave me some sort of sick reassurance
that there is life after death
that there is more to life than life?
Funky.......
hmm.....I don't know why the heck I am writing it here
but it's an online journal so I might as well
Maybe I'll look back at this 15 years later
and laugh
So here it goes
I was kinda like in a dream
chasing someone in a house
He climbed out a window and he squatted behind a block
his face was covered up and all I could see was his hair
I roughly remember holding a pistol at his head
and asking some question but he refused to look at me
and suddenly the dream ended abruptly and it was as if
I was forced to wake up
My entire body just turned ninety degrees and I just faced my window
I just felt my body go under tremendous pressure
as though I was going to burst at any moment
Then I kinda started talking unconsiously but it didn't feel like it was the same as when I talk normally
everything seemed forced
It was so freaky but it subsided enough for me to say a prayer
and everything became normal until I dreamt or thought of the word
'exorcism'
then the same thing happened like before except that I was facing the ceiling....
so bloody freaky but so freakily true
Disclaimer:
The following entry contains extremely Vulgar and Unrefined Language.
Please refrain from reading it if you find that vulgarity is evil and must be expelled from the face of this Earth:
Agrh!Fuck you
Fuck all your lies
Fuck all the eyes
that look at me
That pierce right through me
Damn you Bitch why won't you listen
Damn you bastard why won't you look at me
Fuck you Fuck all of you
Screw this life
Can no one see the fucking pain
Everyday everyone
Feels the hurt
feels the shame
but they cover it up
they hide it inside
behind a mask
behind a wall
with their souls rotting inside
with their conscience burnt to ashes
Succumbing to Sin
Losing whatever within
And you let it out on others
and you make everyone suffer
What lies behind your empty words
what lies beneath your hollow shell
What lies behind your petty squabbles
what lies beneath this skin
No...I will end this
I will stop this
I will Smile
fuck the face of death
fuck the face of hate
fuck the face of gluttony
fuck the face of avarice
fuck the face of pride
fuck the face of sloth
fuck the face of envy
fuck the face of lust
fuck the face of wrath
yet I still feel this feelings.....
I feel them well up inside
no matter how much I try
to just be that nice guy
I keep pushing myself
closer and closer to the edge
do you think I am too selfish to feel
too selfish to be loved
Why are you so angry?
Why are you so empty?
Let me be the one to take your pain
Let me be the one to take the blame
I'll always be there for you
I'll always be by your side
Don't cry
Don't weep
Please don't scream
Please don't shout
Anger is like a knife to me
Hate is like a sword to me
Let it pierce right through me
Let it cut right through me
Let it stay there
Let it rust there
So you'll never need to feel it again
So you can always see the sun again
All I want is to make you smile
All I want is to make you happy
Release yourself