Ok.....
I finally found something
that psyches me up for whatever's ahead of me
It came in the toilet today
The Joseph Lim in my head started acting up again
started saying all the stuff he would say
and the Jeremy Chua in my head started saying
'Are you nuts?'
After signing up on Singapore Idol
and I was like
'Fuck what did I just do?'
then that strange voice
my lost pride it seems
started saying
'bring it on'
and I was like saying that
a couple of times
I have but 1 life to live
1 shot at this
David Tseng Donovan or Jeremy please Download on ur mp3 playa:
Hero-enrique Iglesias
Nothing at all-Ronan Keating
Every move you make-Sting
(songs I am gonna sing(unconfirmed))
Thank you
This are the thoughts that went thru my head when I applied for Singapore Idol(each line represents a diff thought):
Dumb Bitch~!
You are nuts!
Lamer....
You suck...Why even bother
WEEEEEEEE!!!
Don't be a fucker and humiliate yourself
Bring it On!
For Troy!
I can do it! I can do it!
Lotsa work to do!
Heyyyyyyyyy!
That's not right
God Help me
Why the Hell am I doin' this
My chance to shine?
HelpppppppPPp!
Gonna get this right!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
WHYYYYYY?!?!?!??!!?
Smart...Damn smart
Finally something worth the time and effort
Gambate!
Shimata!
My dark side is slipping thru
My Seal on my emotions is gonna break too
Betrayed,by someone I knew so long
All those times
I spent for him
I spent with him
Trusted you too long
stuck with you too tight
I believed you for so long
That promise of the dream
That one day we'd be there with the best
but you betrayed everything
The honour the trust
is gone lost by your deed
Now I am breaking apart
All that I am
Its getting blurry
It's getting darker
How could you live with yourself
Knowing what've done?
Cutting the wrists of your closest friend
And you watched him bleed
and you knew the truth
You were the one who cut him
and yet you show no fear
hiding behind that mask that facade
I am done this is the end
Of your lies and broken promises
I'll never see you till you repent....
On a lighter note,
Went to watch Van Helsing and Troy
with Remy Bernie and Danny boy
Funky how the swords sing
While they take them out and take a swing
Kinda cool the flow of blood
Like a crimson fountain from the heart
kinda alright shows I guess
Although a wee bit draggy
and a bit of a standard story line
I want more shows like matrix....T_T
I missed plot twists......
Once again
I apologise to anyone I have offended or
caused any form of Hurt to Physically,mentally or spiritually.
Hello there,
I just wanna say sorry to
Nick for taking his blog layout
Remy for making him smell funky
and anyone who I haven't been there for
Today was just another day
Same crap same shit
Same nonsense from Nathan
Telling us about a test
an hour before we had it
I didn't feel like doing it
I didn't care less
but in the end I conformed
Like the bloody singaporean I am
Have I been singing too much?
Am I pissing you off?
Sorry if I did still finding my tune
I'm sorry if I do things to hurt you
then it did't come out the right way
Am I too hurtful am I too Hateful?
Am I not making any sense?
Something tells me the harder I try for anything
the further I get from achieving it
I still can't get why you are so angry
Is it because of me or is it because of you?
maybe 1 day I'll wake up right
Am I a good friend?
or am I a malcontent?
Am I too nerdy too messy?
Do I suck as a PW leader?
Do you think you can count on me?
Am I suffering from low self esteem?
Where do I draw the line between arrogance and confidence
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck
Gonna start writing my blog in a different way.Here it comes:(this is like basically summary of what Ive been feeling for quite sometime)
Woke up from a dreamless sleep
same thing every day
suffering for the things I've done
I can't be who I am anymore
My eyes see so cleary
Yet I can't make anything out
Still drowning in my broken promises
Still unsure of myself
Thoughts of paranoia shift through my mind
Who are they laughing at? Are they just unkind?
Whispers....So soft yet they cut through my heart
Shattered words that keep breaking my heart
Keep straring Keep staring
What's wrong with me
Am I like you or Am I like Me?
Schizophrenia...Talking to myself
So used to it so in love with it
Yet I know that its wrong
People turn to me and tell me their woes
I can't solve all their problems all I can do is listen
I hope that they get through it
and so comes to the end of the day
Still coming to terms that my life's in ruins
Who am I today Who am I tomorrow?
Why can't I sit and smile
and Listen to the trees for awhile
Why am I so empty?
Even when something is funny
I can hardly laugh
Who am I behind this mask?
Is there nothing within?
Placed on this Earth to do what
To see Man screw himself up?
Bombs dropping and Blood spilling
Old ladies and old men along the street
Give them some cash that's all they need
Why must I feel hate Why must I feel greed
and hide behind a wall of lies and deceit
Why can't you see the good in everyone
or are you too careless to think of anyone
What's the point in living if you live only for yourself
What's the point in doing things only for yourself
I'll give up anything for anyone
give my soul up for everyone
trust every word you say
Even though there's a price to pay
Screw your sexist racist shit
what's the point of saying it
If you still can't do something about it
Screw my emotions Screw everything I feel
I need some place to shout to scream for my wounds to heal
I still can't stop the pain of the world
I can't make it all go away
Where are you God ?
Where is your son?
Has the end of the world already begun?
Everyone deserves to live
Everyone deserves a say
Everyone deserves to fulfill their dreams one day
Everyone deserves a friend
and I'll be there till the very end
No Wings/Spirit Wings
What Kind of Wings are You?
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Hmm.....Some wingless creature thingy again....T_T.
Release yourself